i believe something is wrong, im actually...

First off, two posts in one day!!! what?!

Yep you are seeing right :)

But I don't know what has gotten into me lately, 

it seems to me that...

and it def. did take its sweet time, but I finally have it back in my life! 

For months after I left my husband (you can read about that here )

I was depressed for the longest time almost 5 months of me being a debbi downer

and not being myself, a stranger to myself! 

A lot of my family, friends, and coworkers worried about me, I turned to alcohol to drown away my problems, started smoking again after quitting for 5 months, partying to 5 in the morning everyday, and became a regular at a bar, and getting a DUI! 

I didn't see it as a bad thing, I saw it as me not having to worry about the worries in my LIFE! 

 

J, THE NEW MAN IN MY LIFE; saw me struggling, not giving two shits about myself or what I was doing, and still driving drunk after I got a DUI! STUPID I KNOW!

If it wasn't for him lecturing giving advice & helping me everyday; I would still be doing those things! He helped me wanna be a better person and change for the better! 

I can never thank this man enough for helping me and being there 100%! 

For my new years goals (I started before 2012) the biggest one I wanted to accomplish was being a better me and believing in myself that I could and I have! I stopped going out and drinking every night, I QUIT smoking, I stopped letting peer pressure work and got the negative people outta my life and moving on!!

2 weeks into I feel better more energized and motivated!

I get more things done, help my parents out more, saved my money, spent more time with the furbabies! 

I started doing my hobbies again (reading, crafting, writing in my blog)

and my relationship with J has never been better and will be going to Cali to visit soon! :)

My life is filled with happiness now :) 

vacation part 1...

I have to do my vacation in parts,

because stupid Picnik.com decided to be a pain in my ass!

While I tried to put my pictures in collages.

So here is the few I made. Enjoy :)

 

Since we didn't get to celebrate christmas together, Santa visited us again :)

I guess my family thought I was a stinky butt bc they all got me perfume:

Fancy by Jessica Simpson, Wonderstuck by my girl Taylor Swift, and Victoria Secrets Tease 

I guess if I really did stink before, I wont anymore thank goodness ;)

The scenery was amazing :) 

and old church going through the smokey mountains...

Yes thats a beer.haha! Wasn't mine i finished mine in the car! ;)

While going through all this old buildings! We came across an accident, an elder man tripped backwards on one of the parking things while he was taking a picture of his wife! He busted his head open and was unconcious, with  half of my family being Chiropractors we stopped and helped! His poor wife was so scared, all of us were for them he was not responding (for like 15 mins) and making snoring like noises! None of us had way to get in touch with the ambulance or any help with being in the mountains and having no signal! So my dad drove down the opposite way of a one way street down the mountain to find help! When they got there, the officer said he wasn't looking great and called for a life flight to bring him to the hospital! We left to give them privacy since a huge crowd had formed! 

I pray he is ok and his wife too! Thank God for good people helping them and doctors and nurses on the scene before the officer got there to call for help! 

This lady said they were having such an amazing time that day, 

and in the blink of an eye things changed for the worse!

Shows that anything can happen and change in a second even when you are having the most amazing time! So make sure you always tell your loved ones how much you love them every time you get the chance, and live your life to  the fullest, you never know when it will be your last!

PART 2 COMING SOON :)

HERE COMES TROUBLE... SEE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN U MIX MUAH & FREE MOONSHINE TASTING! 

          

tomorrow...tomorrow...your onllllyyy a day away

well ladies...and gents if your reading

I will be on my way to...

while my parents drive (since i can't drive a stick)

i will hopefully be snoozing the whole way looking like this.

when i will actually probably looking more like dis girl (whitney port?) 

stayin hurrr in this exact cabin...

sipping on some cold beers, some wine and grubbing on some great food, sight seeing,

relaxing with the family minus the brothers and adding the bro-in-laws aunt and uncles!

so i will see you guys next week :)

12 before 2012...

12 New Year Resolution's Goals before 2013 :)

1. Quit smoking for good... so far I am on day 2... GO ME :)

2. Start back school and make all A's. Applied for University of Phoenix today.

3. Read more books 

4. Have a better relationship with God, go to church more and find one that I enjoy going to.

5. Work out 5 days a week and become runner.

6. Save money for a new car and start a savings fund.

7. Be a better person, change my attitude towards some people, and stop being so negative.

8. quit going out so much I have realized I was on the verge of being a alcoholic and being 21 is not an excuse especially since i have been able to drink for over 4 years and instead of going out spend more time with my family and friends.

9. Try new things and go out of my comfort zone.

10. be more organized 

11. get back into crafting and baking. Also in this category find new hobbies :)

12. Travel to new places