i believe something is wrong, im actually...

First off, two posts in one day!!! what?!

Yep you are seeing right :)

But I don't know what has gotten into me lately, 

it seems to me that...

and it def. did take its sweet time, but I finally have it back in my life! 

For months after I left my husband (you can read about that here )

I was depressed for the longest time almost 5 months of me being a debbi downer

and not being myself, a stranger to myself! 

A lot of my family, friends, and coworkers worried about me, I turned to alcohol to drown away my problems, started smoking again after quitting for 5 months, partying to 5 in the morning everyday, and became a regular at a bar, and getting a DUI! 

I didn't see it as a bad thing, I saw it as me not having to worry about the worries in my LIFE! 

 

J, THE NEW MAN IN MY LIFE; saw me struggling, not giving two shits about myself or what I was doing, and still driving drunk after I got a DUI! STUPID I KNOW!

If it wasn't for him lecturing giving advice & helping me everyday; I would still be doing those things! He helped me wanna be a better person and change for the better! 

I can never thank this man enough for helping me and being there 100%! 

For my new years goals (I started before 2012) the biggest one I wanted to accomplish was being a better me and believing in myself that I could and I have! I stopped going out and drinking every night, I QUIT smoking, I stopped letting peer pressure work and got the negative people outta my life and moving on!!

2 weeks into I feel better more energized and motivated!

I get more things done, help my parents out more, saved my money, spent more time with the furbabies! 

I started doing my hobbies again (reading, crafting, writing in my blog)

and my relationship with J has never been better and will be going to Cali to visit soon! :)

My life is filled with happiness now :)