nervous...

Today at four o'clock, my most dreadful moment will be happening! 

Court that is, for my stupid mistake of drinking and driving! Yall please don't ever drink and drive, not only for your safety but for the others!  That 20 dollar taxi ride you think isn't worth it, is worth it; because it may seem like it's not a big deal to drive after a few drinks like I did but it is, after having to sit in jail for 9+ hours, lectures and disappointments from everyone around you, and 3000 dollars in court & lawyer fees later I realized how stupid I was for driving, even though I thought I was ok to drive just 2 mins. down the road! 

MISTAKE LEARNED!!!

Now for court and my punishments! 

I know I am guilty, but praying the jury will say not guilty! 

Please say a quick prayer for me, that I make it out of the court house with not too many punishments,

or JAIL TIME!  

oh life

So I have been m.i.a. with no excuse really, just dealing with some hard times! 

I am not gonna get into detail, because I don't know who all reads my blog

and I don't want anyone that knows me or doesn't to judge me, I just need some prayers to get through it! 

I am okay, im just going through a rough patch in life, 

and trying to get myself back into the right direction! 

Which I will as soon as all this passes by, I am strong I know I can handle what God has given me even though sometimes I wish he didn't trust me so much...lol!

I believe in him and know everything will be ok, so I am putting it in his hands and praying to overcome this and for it too build me as a person and learn from my mistakes! :)

& if you do say a prayer for me, please don't do this kinda praying, i think someone already beat ya too it..haha

With all this bullshit that is happening I learned and want to do:

1.I learned who my true friends are

2. family is always there for you

3. God has a plan for me

4. life is about learning from your mistakes and not making the same one twice

5. I am going to talk to some recruiters tomorrow; I think joining the military is something I need to do, for my country, family, friends and myself! 

6. Be a better person

7. dont lean towards things that arent good for me

8. Get back in a better relationship with my mom & dad

9. Make time for God, and pray and go to church more!

10. CHANGE for myself 

I am going to try to blog more, now that i have all the negativity out of my life

and more time to get back in control of my life and not just vent on here :)