oh life

So I have been m.i.a. with no excuse really, just dealing with some hard times! 

I am not gonna get into detail, because I don't know who all reads my blog

and I don't want anyone that knows me or doesn't to judge me, I just need some prayers to get through it! 

I am okay, im just going through a rough patch in life, 

and trying to get myself back into the right direction! 

Which I will as soon as all this passes by, I am strong I know I can handle what God has given me even though sometimes I wish he didn't trust me so much...lol!

I believe in him and know everything will be ok, so I am putting it in his hands and praying to overcome this and for it too build me as a person and learn from my mistakes! :)

& if you do say a prayer for me, please don't do this kinda praying, i think someone already beat ya too it..haha

With all this bullshit that is happening I learned and want to do:

1.I learned who my true friends are

2. family is always there for you

3. God has a plan for me

4. life is about learning from your mistakes and not making the same one twice

5. I am going to talk to some recruiters tomorrow; I think joining the military is something I need to do, for my country, family, friends and myself! 

6. Be a better person

7. dont lean towards things that arent good for me

8. Get back in a better relationship with my mom & dad

9. Make time for God, and pray and go to church more!

10. CHANGE for myself 

I am going to try to blog more, now that i have all the negativity out of my life

and more time to get back in control of my life and not just vent on here :) 

I SWARE..

If one more person tells me I am in the wrong for leaving my abusive marriage, especially his commander so I will be calling jag tomorrow to get to talk to someone who isn't going to talk to me like he knows everything about what happened and how to live my life..hell no! 

reason why I will probably hurt a few people if i could get away with it.  I wish there was a such thing I could use one pass going to jail card for something I did wrong, I would in a heart beat not gonna lie, but since there is no such thing I will just vent to my blog and wish Karma would hurry up and do her job damn it! 

On to a more positive note, because I know yall don't want to hear me gripe and bitch about all that stuff, and its not me to be miss negative nancy! This last week has been quite amazing I have caught up with some girl friends from high school that I havent spoken to in awhile, hung out with family, almost fully potty trained the girls, and just enjoying life without all the negative remarks and so forth! Oh and he started the divorce papers today hopefully not to much longer and I will be a free women and get my life to how I want it, and enjoy life being single I am not sure if I want to ever get married anymore, after all I went through but maybe one day I will have the family I dreamed of since I was a little girl, a girl can dream right? 

Well I am off to bed long day tomorrow nighty night :) 

im back..

Sorry I have been absent the last few days, aunt flow got the best in me this visit and I was in a funk and had nothing nice to say (or write) I hate aunt flow with a passion she screws me over every time I swear I think she is a man, no actually both! Ok enough about her, I wanna talk about me! Well I am back in a blogging mood yay, I missed writing I kept up with all of you lovely ladies and gents(if your reading this) and am glad to be back! :)  

I have been quite the little miss betty crocker and tried out some new recipes because I was tired of eating the same thing over and over again, i even got tired of mash potatoes if you know me that is one of my favorites... so but omgah amazing recipes, I didn't take a picture (fail..i know) but if you were have smelled these two you would have forgotten too, so forgive me!

But I made a meatloaf, I use to hate it and all of a sudden out of no where I wanted some probably because I heard someone talking about it and googled easy meatloaf recipes so glad I did because this recipe popped up and it is to die for:

thebomb.com for amazing meatloaf recipe

and then I finally decided to try my crock pot out that I haven't used in forever and made this: 

Buffalo chicken Sandwhiches, if you ever had zaxby's and tried the kickin chicken sandwhich this is like it i was in heaven my husband and me both made some noises eating this that sounded like bed rocking noises if you know what I mean..hahaha..seriously though it is that great and super easy to make

amazing chicken sammichhh :)

I think my husband fell more in love with after these recipes I made! 

:)

But I need to rant because my neighbors are pissing me the eff off, they are blaring there music in a four plex umm hello the walls are not sound proof and I do not appriecate my walls vibrating especially when I am studying I already have asked them nicely to please turn the music down because I needed to study and guess what 2 hours later their blaring the shit again, they need to have respect for others, because they are messing with me and I don't play nice especially after asking more than once so the cops are probably going to be called if I can hear it upstairs when I am trying to sleep! ughh has anyone ever had a problem like this? what did yall do?

well I am off to bed hopefully I dont hear them upstairs because the popos will be called and I am pretty sure they are doing drugs because the smoke doesn't smell like cigerattes lol..

and I will be catching up my challenge tomorrow :) 

pinterest, a little venting & birthday plans :)

Why haven't I known about Pinterest until the other day? 

I am in love and already have my dream home ideas, crafting, hair, photography ideas & a workout plan in one place and its still growing! my life is now complete..lol. jk.. not taking it that far but it is now one of my favorite sites including good ol' facebook, google+, youtube and of course blogger!

& since I am talking sites, im bring up facebook, and the fact about how some people can be sooo mean, i guess maybe because its all online they grow some balls and go off on some people about their own opinions on their own personal site, bc i know for sure if some people had the balls to type some of the stuff i seen they better have the balls to face me, face to face and I would love to hear it from them in person so I can knock them out right after! I get everyone has a opinion but to go on someone else's fb and cause a scene telling them they're wrong yadayadaya is not right, if you don't agree and you know your just cause a problem simply don't go crazy and cruel to the other person on their site hellooo u won't win.. because that person in my view wouldn't let u win and they have friends who take up for them, so simply just remove that post or that person! 

and another one fighting or arguing with your spouse or love one on facebook, not cute and it makes you look bad, that's why they have chat and personal messaging! so my advice don't do it and don't complain about him/ her because people aren't going to forget the negative stuff trust me I did some stuff like that before and well guess what everyone remembers? the bad!

Ok i am done with my rant, sorry for that, blogger sometimes, ok all the time becomes the place i can vent too hehe :)  

on to birthday plans...

"Finally 21, and legally able to do everything I've been doing since 15."
~ Anonymous

Oh that quote sooo cute and sooo true :) 

But I am trying to figure out what all to do for my birthday, our plans at first were to go down to austin and hit 6th st. but finical issues had to come burst my bubble, and the casinos well there 5 hrs away, so I am stuck having my party here, so I am thinking about going out to eat somewhere, because this girl loves food, and having a few drinks and then after party with this cake..

(i wish)

and some more drinks, beer pong and a good time with my husbands and some friends? 

is that a lame 21rst birthday? 

do you ever...

VENTING & BITCHING WARNING: 

read at your own risk...

Have a day where you wish you could just sleep it away?? 

Well I am having one of those days after I woke up from my nap earlier, everything went down hill and I just want to go back to bed & wake up tomorrow, my manager texted me to tell me she took me off the schedule because I missed a "mandatory" meeting (that I thought she said was next sunday, not last sunday), and I that I never texted her back (that I NEVER got might I add), telling her why I missed the meeting! WTF? I wanna know when it became professional for a manager to text and never call?? So now I am unemployed, but the good thing about not having a job is that I can focus more on school and getting my pharmacy tech certification sooner & make more bows and work on other crafts! 

other little bs that has made my day even worse below:

My brother also got in trouble for the interview my dad did on him, because they didn't approve it first! 

I wanted to make cupcakes and guess what out of some of the ingredients! 

I offically messed up cooking mac-n-cheese, who does that?? this girl! 

I made my first c on a test in math, I have made all a's until then! 

and along with all this I have a headache! 

:'( SAD DAY!!!!

Going to watch my shows, do homework and eat then early bed time for this girl have a very important doctors app tomorrow morning too see if I can have and hold babies full term! Wish me luck!