10 day you challenge day one secrets

ten secrets will be kinda hard since I am the worst at keeping my own secrets...but lets go for it :)

1. My worst fears are drowning and burning to death, I freak out and come up swinging when some one pushes me or holds me under the water, and fires are ok unless they're unsupervised! lol. 

2. I am afraid of the dark when I am alone

3. I can't stand staying home alone either, I may sleep with a knife or gun very close to me just in case haha.

4. I am deadly afraid of white vans especially the ones that block out there windows, umm hello kidnappers, I will walk the opposite way of where I am going just so I don't come anywhere near it! 

5. I use to tell people when I was younger that I was allegric to corn just so I wouldn't have to eat it! 

6. I can't watch scary movies or else I get nightmares, no joke! ha.

7. I tried out for americas next top model and FAILED miserably at the interview.

8. I HATE talking on the phone, it makes me super nervous and i jumble my words and have no clue why haha..

9. I use to think I was gay, hahaha highschool stage, obviously I am NOT a lesbian! 

my dyke stage..mwahaha! 

10.  I almost joined the marine corps in high school, and am still thinking about joining one day but another branch! 

What im loving wednesdays :)

So sorry I have been such a slacker on blogging I have been busy with school, work, tests and getting my house organized! Soon when I finish getting everything back settled I will post pics of our first home together! 

But anywho,I haven't done what im loving wednesdays in awhile so i am linking up with Jamie @ What Im loving Wednesday :) make sure you link up and join in on the fun :)

This baby our scent of the month "Happy Birthday" is burning in my warmer and it smells amazing, im not gonna lie I didn't like this smell at first but I decided to see if it would smell better melted in my pretty warmer and I am glad I did because my house smells like a cake shop, yum :)

YOU CAN BUY THIS SCENT HERE: https://courtneywestwood.scentsy.us/Home

My new addiction, hot fries I have maybe ate a big bag of these everyday for the last few days hehehe 

my other addiction: frozen yogurt!

I love this stuff and love that they get new flavors all the time here my favorite right now is banana pudding & taro mmm :)

this quote describes me & my husband

my hubs new bike :) 

Learning how to coupon and make my binder I will be an extreme couponer one day I love buying stuff and if I can get it for cheap I will do it, i am hoping to attend my first class this weekend whoop whoop :)

 these two babies, even though they are sometimes pain in my ass i love them :) 

& of course this man :)

Now I gotta get back to studying and finding me a new job :)

Day 2

" . . . through love serve one another."-Galatians 5:13b
How did you do yesterday with your first day of blessing and encouraging your husband? Was it easy? Was it hard to hold your tongue when you wanted to say something negative? We hope you're off to a good start. (If you blew it, don't give up. Start again today!) There are so many practical things you can praise, if you look for them.
Today, find some way that your husband is serving you or your family. Does he help around the house? Take care of the car? Fix things that are broken? If your budget allows, give him a new, small tool with a big bow attached. But make sure he doesn't think it's part of a "Honey Do" list!
Maybe your husband's not a handyman, but does he run errands for you? Let you go first? Take care of you when you are sick? Help you make decisions? Praise him for his willingness to serve others. Let him know that you see his unique service as a great strength.

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Day 3

"And my God shall supply all your needs according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus." -Phil. 4:19
Love indeed suffers long and is kind. As you consider your Encouragement Challenge, determine today that you will not say anything negative to or about your husband. Speak kindly to him with words of genuine encouragement.
If your husband is considerate of your needs, let him know that you have noticed. Thank him for his kindness and consideration. Thank the Lord that your husband knows how to be both tough and tender.
Sometimes it's difficult for a man to be gentle, kind or tender—especially if he hasn't had role models in these areas. If he's not a considerate person, appeal to him for help without complaining. Let him know that it's hard for you to handle some things alone. Then, when he moves in to help, don't insist that he do it your way. Be glad that he is responding, and express your gratitude.
Ultimately, you can't expect your husband to make you feel more secure, loved, etc. Remember that only God can meet the deepest needs of your heart.
Since I don't always have the time everyday to blog I decided to do my reflections once a week or every few days depending on when I have the time, but I have to share this,I can't believe in the last two days of only doing the love dare & this 30 husband appreciation challenge, not only I have noticed change, my husband did as well we were laying in bed last night and I told him I never wanted to loose him and I have been doing something to help us and he said I have noticed and I LOVE it, I TEARED up of course I am such a big baby..haha..but I am glad I am doing this I haven't felt more connected to him! <3

Anywho, I am now a student at Career Step doing an online program to become a Certified Pharmacy Technician in about 3-6 months :) 

I am so glad all the benefits for military spouses they have, especially MYCAA, they do this so the spouses can get a job that travels easily, because we all know that things change fast in the military and you never know how long you are gonna be in one place for how long, I was going to go to school for nursing but after the I realized we could be pcsing anything after my husband reclasses and reinlists into the army, that we can be put anywhere and school we be left behind so I saw that one of my friends was doing this online program and looked more into well I liked it as you can tell because I am now a student! 
Here is some good info if you are interested: 
The MyCAA funding program was restarted in October of 2010 and offers up to $4000 for military spouses. The funding covers the training costs of eligible military spouses as they're working toward gaining the skills they need to find jobs in growing career fields that have opportunities nationwide and can transfer with them.

The Career Step training programs are completely covered by MyCAA funding, meaning that eligible military spouses can train online through Career Step with no out-of-pocket expenses. You can choose from any of the online Career Step programs and courses and be career ready in just a few months.

MyCAA-Approved, Online Programs:

Administrative Assistant
Medical Administrative Assistant
Medical Coding and Billing
Medical Transcription and Editing
Microsoft Office 2007
Pharmacy Technician


here is the website Career Step  for more information :)

Im sure mostly all you have heard about MYCAA! I was approved for all of it in less than a week and will be starting the program very soon, as soon as I get an email saying I can login! :)

IF you consider doing this and wouldn't mind using me as a reference, it will help you out with your education!
Call Gordon Benson at (801-769-8578) and just give them my name! Courtney Westood! He's a very helpful adviser!

on a much brighter note :)

Sorry about my last post I really needed to get everything off my chest, I like to use my blog as my therapy because it gets everything off my chest and I love that I can and also because I really have no friends here which blows! I need girl time every once and awhile! lol.. but back to what I was getting at I made my appointment for next monday to see the doctor and hope things work out and I can get back to my normal self instead of this crazy person who took over my body, or I would like to call her my evil twin! I sat down after I wrote that last post and cried and cried; I got a lot of thinking in though good thoughts and time to change some things in my life and marriage to make them better! First off I am taking care of me and my problems at the doctor, but as of my marriage I started right when I figured out I don't want to loose my husband, best friend again and I know we I need some work! So I was browsing blogs and found a great idea to start these...

If you haven't heard of this book, its from the movie Fireproof, which I love and own and it has helped a lot for understanding marriage, I bought this book a month ago and planned on doing it but I honestly just didnt care too! I know wrong, but I was mad and yada yada..so I decided to start today on the first dare: DAY 1: so far its been quite easy because honestly my husband has been asleep since he has been home, but I texted him positive things and helped him today more than I have in awhile so far so good! 

Here is the link that tells you everything you need to know for right now and she post the daily challenge everyday on her blog :) 

I cannot wait to see the results, I actually started today because it is needed! 

here it goes:

30 DAY HUSBAND APPRECIATION CHALLENGE!

SO WE BEGIN WITH DAY ONE: 

"The heart of her husband safely trusts her; so he will have no lack of gain. She does him good and not evil all the days of her life."
-Proverbs 31:11-12

To help you get started, have you ever thanked your husband for "choosing" you above all other women? He found you attractive as a person, and appreciated you. Though many circumstances in your marriage may have changed, let your husband know that you are glad God led you together, and that you want to be a blessing to him for the rest of your marriage. Let him know that he can trust you to be in his corner.

One of the best opportunities to express your gratitude is first thing in the morning. How do you greet your husband each morning? Is he confident in your love? Give him a "wake up call" that he'll never forget - a big "I love you" and an "I'm so glad to be your wife!"

THE RESULTS OF DAY 1 SO FAR: 

I texted him this while he was at a motorcycle class on base and he came home a happy man and gave me a big kiss, and that hasn't happened in awhile and said thank you my proud wife I missed you with a big smile, i blushed for once in long time to him and my heart smiled, i already see change and love it! :)  

LETS JUST SAY I AM ONE HAPPY GIRL RIGHT NOW! :) 

i dont know what my deal is...kinda hard to say this outloud..but i need to vent!

Lately I been in such a funk, and I thought it was maybe lack of sleep but I have actually gotten a lot of sleep more than I would think since I have a new schedule! But I have been having mood swings like crazy and emotional for no reason, and very snappy! I don't know what my deal is and I don't understand it I am happy one minute then the next I think about something from the past, freak out and stress myself out and well hello not nice to meet you mrs. bitch courtney! I hate being this way but I can't control it sometimes, its like im bipolar or I think I may have anxiety problems I read all the symptoms and well I have most ughh..I really need a chill pill! ha literally! Does anyone else have anxiety problems? 

this picture is exactly how i feel :( 

I want my life back to where it use to be by no means was it perfect but I felt control over myself and my emotions, but after I had my miscarriages I was hurt, sad, mad angry, guess you can say depressed! I turned into someone I don't even really know I hate it, I just want the two babies I lost and my life where it use to be but to stay where I am at now if you know what I mean! I feel bad for my husband I know I take it out all on him and I know its affecting our relationship and I can't talk about really to anyone because no one knows the pain I felt or am feeling now which sucks because I am keeping it in and I know its not a good thing for me, but I get to emotional about it! I just want a baby but I don't honestly know if I can carry them I already have had two miscarriages in a 9 month period! Its hard, especially now because A LOT of my friends are preggo or just had a baby and I cant help but to be jealous, grrr i hate that!  I don't want to be jealous or sad but its there and not going away! :( but don't get me wrong I am so happy for them I just wish I could have a baby, but my husband isn't ready so I guess I will need to wait for that! 

I just looked up more anxiety symptoms

Emotional symptoms of anxiety

In addition to the primary symptoms of irrational and excessive fear and worry, other common emotional symptoms of anxiety include:

Feelings of apprehension or dread (CHECK) Trouble concentrating (TRIPLE CHECK)  Feeling tense and jumpy (ALWAYS,CHECK)  Anticipating the worst (CANT HELP IT, CHECK)

Irritability (HA, ALWAYS, CHECK) Restlessness (I HAVE STAGES, CHECK)  Watching for signs of danger (I AM ALWAYS EXPECTING THE WORSE, CHECK) Feeling like your mind’s gone blank (ALWAYS,CHECK)

so after determining all of my issues I think I am gonna make myself appointment to seek some help...I need it, too move past it and move on with my life a happier person! 

Thanks for letting me vent, and please don't negatively judge me you have your own issues too, its not uncommon! I promise I use to be a fun & nice person!  

random happenings in my life :)

Life has been crazy busy lately, I started selling scentsy a few weeks ago and been trying to get started with that lets just say selling scentsy is the "cool thing" to do around here, everyone and their momma sells it  here so its very competitive and some people here are always trying to do something crazy or bash other girls selling it to make them seem better! I hope I will never become one of those im not going to push someone to buy from me i will advertise but if someone wants to buy from me they will! Like today got an order from one of my sister's friends I just put a link out there and people come to it when they have the money! Simple and I love it that way! Because I don't know about you but I hate nagging sales people! lol. So if you want to ever buy some scentsy or just check out products here is my site, don't worry you don't have to be local to buy from me! http://courtneywestwood.scentsy.us/  :)  

LOOK HOW CUTE OUR JULY WARMER IS:

(10% OFF THIS MONTH ONLY ALONG WITH THE SCENT OF THE MONTH HAPPY BIRTHDAY)

ALSO WE HAVE 20 SCENTS THAT YOU HAVE BEGGED AND PLEEDED FOR THEM TO COME BACK AND THEY'RE HERE UNTIL THE END OF THE MONTH AS WELL! HERE IS THE LINK:BRING BACK MY BARS :)

OK ENOUGH ABOUT SCENTSY BACK TO MY CRAZY LIFE :)

But anywho after I started selling scentsy I  got a call for a job opening I applied for about a month ago and well I got the job I was so excited because I put in a billion applications everywhere and finally got one, it's not the best or the best paying but its a job and it pays! lol.. so now I am a frozen yogurt, smoothie and crepe making girl! ha.. I also find it very weird because the owners put literally cameras in every single corner and watch us from there computers, tv and phones! ITS CREEPY! But it will have to due for now because it is the only place hiring where i DONT have to know spanish to work there, the last time I checked we were in america! just saying! 

I also am about to start a new program at career step to become a Pharmacy Technician in about 3-6 months so hopefully it all works out and I can find me a job getting better hours and moola, I am already enrolled in college here but will be done with it by august, so two jobs, two schools, house wife, and momma too two pups= one exhausted cranky girl, i feel sorry for my husband because i am not the nicest when i am lacking sleep! :/ 

here is me but in puppy version that made me smile:

But I promise I will get back to blogging again once my crazy life slows down :)

here is some pictures of the furbabies :) 

they wanted some of the yummy steaks daddy made for dinner :) 

BEST FRIENDS : ) 

have a great fourth of july everyone stay safe, and no drinking and driving :) 

over the weekend :)

I was so nervous for this weekend to come because ever since the last time me and danny spilt his parents didn't care for me too much, they weren't very excited to hear the news of us getting back together either! We haven't spoken in like 6 months and then they were coming to visit so I had no idea what to expect when they came! But everything seemed to go pretty great my niece came with them so it let off some of the nervousness I had! lol.. We all went to a lot of Harley stores and Ikea in Austin on Friday since my hubby got him a new motorcycle and I found the cutest helmet ever and cute clothes there mostly black pink and bedazzled makes it a lot more exciting since I am not the biggest fan of motorcycles! Im a big scardy cat! 

I want to take pin up pictures on my husband harley for him now only to find a photographer to do something like these :) 

Back to the weekend Saturday we had a surprise for our niece and went to Sea World in San Antonio and had a blast we got to pet a dolphin, see shamu and ride some rollercoasters, our niece loved it but man was that texas heat horrible!

here is some pictures:

but I guess my fun filled weekend had to be taking over by a mean sinus infection so I been laying in bed and on the couch all day letting the hubby take care of me! 

So back off to bed I go hope everyone had a great weekend :)