oh life

So I have been m.i.a. with no excuse really, just dealing with some hard times! 

I am not gonna get into detail, because I don't know who all reads my blog

and I don't want anyone that knows me or doesn't to judge me, I just need some prayers to get through it! 

I am okay, im just going through a rough patch in life, 

and trying to get myself back into the right direction! 

Which I will as soon as all this passes by, I am strong I know I can handle what God has given me even though sometimes I wish he didn't trust me so much...lol!

I believe in him and know everything will be ok, so I am putting it in his hands and praying to overcome this and for it too build me as a person and learn from my mistakes! :)

& if you do say a prayer for me, please don't do this kinda praying, i think someone already beat ya too it..haha

With all this bullshit that is happening I learned and want to do:

1.I learned who my true friends are

2. family is always there for you

3. God has a plan for me

4. life is about learning from your mistakes and not making the same one twice

5. I am going to talk to some recruiters tomorrow; I think joining the military is something I need to do, for my country, family, friends and myself! 

6. Be a better person

7. dont lean towards things that arent good for me

8. Get back in a better relationship with my mom & dad

9. Make time for God, and pray and go to church more!

10. CHANGE for myself 

I am going to try to blog more, now that i have all the negativity out of my life

and more time to get back in control of my life and not just vent on here :)