Sorry for my disapperance from blogging I have a good excuse!
Last monday my life changed for ever once again, I am going straight to the point but not all in full detail bc I am still shaken up from it all!
My husband texted me out of the blue saying he wanted to full fill his dreams of being a porn director, at first I thought he was kidding...NOPE! He got home a little after, I was upset from the texts he sent still he came up stairs so happy bc he has been looking into some more and this is where it all started to go down hill, I got mad and bc I was mad at him he got mad at me?? (is that even right? not to me)
But things got heated up quickly after that, he told me I didnt make him happy or satisfy him and he wanted out; I told him the door was there he packed his stuff and when he was opening the door I told him he would miss this, I did everything to make things better and to make him happy, and once he left I would be packing my stuff and going back to alabama because I do not belong here; he went crazy, I tried calling the police and he grabbed me and scracthed the shit outta me and grabbed my phone and went upstairs and went outside to go to the neighbors to call the police but he through my phone at me and followed me I tried to get outside but I couldn't so I ran upstairs locked the door and thought I was in some horror movie this had to be a dream, about a few minutes after he came to the door saying he was leaving just needed something out of the room for work, I let him in and he went straight to the bedside where our gun is kept got it and once he was walking out of the room he pulled the gun to his head and went to the bathroom and locked himself in...I called 911 and he shot of the door and ran to his truck and left, like 6 cops came and surronded my door and asked me a million and 1 questions and they were on the search to find him and when they did they let him go with the gun with him, the police told me to report all the info to his commander so he would put him away so I would have time to pack my stuff and leave.. I am scared of what he will do he obviously has some issues and he has never been deployed or any heavy training so he cant blame that!
I am safe... and back in alabama with my family...and waiting for the divorce papers..
Im done with the lies, his selfishness, & the abuse; I don't deserve to live in his misery; i feel like the biggest idiot for giving him the time of day and another chance for now on I will live my life for me and my future and no one will ever be able to take it away and I will do it all with a smile on my face knowing I don't have to deal with it anymore..I am still young and have the rest of my life :)